Life at present

I know I know... I am not really a person who gets frustrated easily. Infact the people who do know me, think that I live life in a state of constant *high* (if u know what I mean).
But, as is pretty obvious, that is soooo not true... In fact I only get high every other weekend and that too in a single can of beer... Stay as far away from marijuana as possible...
aah but me diverts.. Back to what I want to say..

So as I was saying, I have been staying in a state of perpetual cheerfulness for so long that I can't remember when was the last time I actually gave vent to all the emotions which have been welling up inside of me (naaah, not tears man :D ).

Ok, so its like this... I have grown tired of working in the company (even though I do little but surf the net). I have grown tired of the daily routine of monotonous life!! I hate it when nothing of worth is happening around me. The only notable thing in my life being, when I have my next IIM Call.. n I don't mean that in a bad way..
But things were so, so different back in college... I was the KAPOOR, the CHAAT, the POPLI.. around whom the whole chemical dept stayed (abusing me if u'd like to know but still..). The point I am trying to make is, that until last year, I was surrounded by activity and responsibility. Now, I am just another insignificant dude who has enough brains to get into a job and is not unemployed!!! :mg:

So, this whole "unimportance of the Anarchy" (lets say) is really starting to bother me... I have started growing irritable... impatient... and all the things which I do not want to be... but I can't help it... Surrounded by people who do not share the same passions as me (barring PG friends of course).. it can really get to you..
aaahhhh... My dear Ravishankar.. kidhar hai tu.... Last year I was able to remain sane because of you!!!!

This post is not for people to know me, judge me or anything like that.. Its just that I am fucking tired of my life and I just want it out of my fucking system so that I can start concentrating on ending this kind of life as soon as possible!!!!! :mad:

chuuu.. am really off mood now...
will write something better in some time!!!