The OFFICIAL labyrinth

Have you ever had the feeling that you were lost?
That whatever you do, you cannot get out of it with the fruit of your efforts?
Kind of what Harry Potter would have felt in the Triwizard tournament?

It is possible that some time down the line, you do have such a situation in your life. And as they say, practice can make you prepared for any kind of eventuality. So (I hope you catch my drift)


Practice getting lost in a labyrinth. Practice going from one place to the other without any sense of being. Practice walking around with your head down moving from one clue to the other with no hope of actually solving the puzzle. Practice by.... going to any government office to get a signature which attests the marks which you obtained a whole eon ago.

Aah. The bliss! The pleasure! The sheer relaxation! Let me recount a story which will further prove the point that being lost in a labyrinth can be very very very very enjoyable.

To start off, lets just imagine a certain honest court place where a lot of honorable lawyers are having a ball. When people like us approach them, the smile on their face is so good, so pleasing, kind of like... "Aah I thanketh lord for the food on my table". It gives you a sense of satisfaction which nothing else can probably give you ever. When they tell you the charge of their services in getting you the required signature, it is so less, that it just breaks your heart and leave them to their philanthropic acts.

Because you realise that just next door is this huge huge building which is supposedly swarming with the all elusive GAZZATED officers. Then when a person asks you to go to the 16th floor (yup, seriously) to get one measly signature... well, you just feel glad you were born in the first place.

Moving on, the 16th floor? or was it 18th? or maybe 14th? naah.. it was none of them. Because of a scandal which broke out a few months ago, all the officers have been shocked into nobility. So they refuse to sign and give you a hint of what a ping pong ball feels when she goes around from this end of the table to the other end with apparently no possibly motive.

Hell, that sweet lawyer's measly fees actually appears endearing all of a sudden... But then you realise, that the helpful man won't be able to get you the "gazzated" officer's signature. Here comes the twist, you have to go to a hospital to get the signature (did no-one see Munnabhai MBBS while making these kinda rules???).

But moving forward, in the hospital.... The dudes and dudettes are roaming around with apparently nothing to do but guide us poor misguided souls towards the gazzated officers. And when we meet them, their fees is even more humble than the dear old lawyers.

It is at this point, at around 2:30 pm in the after noon, you realise the true essence of life... And why is the answer to life itself and everything else is always 42!!!
Please, go thru this experience at least once in your lifetime... It is an enriching experience.
GOD SPEED!

Life at present

I know I know... I am not really a person who gets frustrated easily. Infact the people who do know me, think that I live life in a state of constant *high* (if u know what I mean).
But, as is pretty obvious, that is soooo not true... In fact I only get high every other weekend and that too in a single can of beer... Stay as far away from marijuana as possible...
aah but me diverts.. Back to what I want to say..

So as I was saying, I have been staying in a state of perpetual cheerfulness for so long that I can't remember when was the last time I actually gave vent to all the emotions which have been welling up inside of me (naaah, not tears man :D ).

Ok, so its like this... I have grown tired of working in the company (even though I do little but surf the net). I have grown tired of the daily routine of monotonous life!! I hate it when nothing of worth is happening around me. The only notable thing in my life being, when I have my next IIM Call.. n I don't mean that in a bad way..
But things were so, so different back in college... I was the KAPOOR, the CHAAT, the POPLI.. around whom the whole chemical dept stayed (abusing me if u'd like to know but still..). The point I am trying to make is, that until last year, I was surrounded by activity and responsibility. Now, I am just another insignificant dude who has enough brains to get into a job and is not unemployed!!! :mg:

So, this whole "unimportance of the Anarchy" (lets say) is really starting to bother me... I have started growing irritable... impatient... and all the things which I do not want to be... but I can't help it... Surrounded by people who do not share the same passions as me (barring PG friends of course).. it can really get to you..
aaahhhh... My dear Ravishankar.. kidhar hai tu.... Last year I was able to remain sane because of you!!!!

This post is not for people to know me, judge me or anything like that.. Its just that I am fucking tired of my life and I just want it out of my fucking system so that I can start concentrating on ending this kind of life as soon as possible!!!!! :mad:

chuuu.. am really off mood now...
will write something better in some time!!!

My Job responsibilities (if I have any)

ok.. So what if I am asked.. "What do you do in the company besides surfing the net"

Well, an honest answer would have been..
"Sir, I do pretty much nothing except maybe wasting my time online writing in PG.com or something like orkutting or chatting"

but then, I am not an absolute Raja Harishchandra now, am I :mg:
So here goes

"I work in IBM Applications on Demand in the capacity of a Solutions Architect of the ERP software named Oracle Applications which includes Oracle E-Business Suite and Oracle Financials. (This should impress them a bit) I work in the back end of the sales procedure of my company. This means that whenever the sales people go and initiate talks with a new client, they get a questionnaire filled about the details of the customers (the details are confidential, incidentally :mg: ) which they send to us. Based on the details, we design the hardware architecture for them. After which my team prepares an indicative pricing of the deal which encompasses the clients' needs. These go for further negotiation and after getting the deal, we revise the h/w architecture.... And make a concrete deal..."

Now people reading this. I have got this confirmed that this is the best way to go about my aprticular job responsibilities. The steps I am trying to follow are
1) Nature of work of my industry
2)Nature of my work
3)Where does my work fit in the grander scheme so to speak

and done..
And after this I am prepared to come up with facts and fiction to support my statements. And maybe end with a witty statement like " So you see sir, my work has nothing to do with the internet at all"
and be done with it..

hehehehe
so guys reading this... feedback.. what am I doing correct, wrong etc etc :mg:

Academic Performance... hehehehe

4. What do you feel about your academic performance till now?

This is the single most horrific thought in my mind. What impact does my poor academic record have on my career? I was a woeful student beyond all hope, and then, this stupid exam (aka CAT) came along and revived my hope in myself. Now at this crucial juncture of my career, my acads maybe one of the things holding me back.. Lemme have a decent attempt at this... And lets see how things shape up

I feel that my academic record, a CGPA of 7.28, does not really reflect my capability (now I dunno what the hell this line is supposed to mean, this helped me well in the interviews in college). Even though my past record, about 88% in 10th and 12th, is decent enough (who's isn't ;) ) , I feel that the load of co-curricular and extra curricular activities (now I will probably dish out some of the pathetic certis which I have) affected my academic record. But given the circumstances, and by weighing out the pros and cons of such activities in my personality development, I feel that I would do the same activities had I another chance to undergo my engg. (Now I know this is a real gamble.. I might be thrown out for being arrogant, stubborn, unwilling to change and all, but seriously, what have I got to lose... I feel its worth a shot.. to come out all stud like.... hehehe. and I'll try to make this answer as short and sweet as possible... more room for debate etc etc)



and that's it for today... enough of writing!!! do lemme know what you think about this...

My life rocks.... or does it???

ok...
I have been delaying this for a long while... Practicing what I preach.. Which is deliberation...
I am trying to come up with an answer to the question which I have been asked very recently by tati bhai.
Now I know I am not supposed to share it and everything, but what the hell... I am going ahead with it anyways!!!
All of this which I have written is open to criticism (I hope people read it and all) and I want to improve this answer to the point where it is nearly flawless...
Here goes...

Tell me something about yourself?

I am Abhishek Kapoor, B tech chemical engineer from NIT Trichy and currently employed in IBM at a post of Solutions Architect.

Coming from a culturally sound state pf Uttar Pradesh during my formative years, I have a deep rooted faith in the traditions and cultures of India. Hence, it is my wish to gain as much as I can from the wealth of this country and contribute (if I can in any way) something to it as well.

I have always been interested in “being involved” in everything that is going on around me, be it at school level or college level. Be it organizing events, anchoring shows, teaching students, participating in stage events or editing the college year book, I made it a point that I was one of the main contributors in each and every activity which happened around me.

Other than this, I have always been decent in sports participating in many table tennis competitions and winning some of them.

For me, it is imperative that I give everything I have put my hand in my best shot and then leave the rest up to God for it is not always that the results are in your hand.

Another thing I am really interested in is meeting people. I believe that each and every one of us is inherently good and it is the duty of each and every person to recognize it.

My hobbies would include playing table Tennis and Cricket, reading fiction and non fiction novels, listening to music and playing computer games. I have represented my school and college in Table Tennis and I have been one of the co-organisers of a cricket tournament in my college. I have also played at a district level competition in Counter Strike, a computer game.

Deliberation???

Now, I know. There are lots and lots of times when we feel that now is the time that we start thinking about our future. I mean seriously..
You remember the time we all passed out of skool, "Aah, I wanna become an engineer and rock the world like anything" same was the case with me in college.
But suddenly, the future doesn't look all that bright for me. Being lost in a sea of faces was never my wish when I took up the noble profession.
So, I thought again, this time MBA as the possible solution.

But herein lies the catch, if this is another mistake, where do I go? I'll be too old and too weather beaten at the point I realise that "ok now, This is not the Career I want"..

So what do I do?

The "only possible recourse" (am using that a lot now a days) would be that I try to find an answer to the million dollar question,
"Why do I want to do an MBA?"
now simple as this may seem and it may also appear that "this is a possible question for my interview, so I better prepare it", there is a deep underlying principle behind it.
Only when you realise the reason behind your wanting anything, would you want it more and strive hard enough to get it! The point I am trying to make here is, I (for one) have to be clear in my head abt the intentions with which I am trying to do anything and everything in life. I think it should help me in sorting out the mess which my life is slowly becoming!

chalo, enough for now!!! will write some more later....

Initiation

Well, I have been thinking a lot these past few days. In general, nothing special.
Something about my aspirations, what I wanna become in my life etc etc!

Now, like tati bhai and many more, I am expecting at least one good b-skool call this year. This is the place I am gonna be posting essays (?) et al abt what I wannabe doing these last days. GD/PI, questionnaire etc etc.
So, if you wanna know what I am doing etc etc, you are free to post your comments here!!!

rock on UDT!!!